Charity~The pure love of Christ

I hope I can continue my success with my weekly christ-like attributes. I know if i make them official and put them up on my blog it wil remind me and give me a little more of a push. This last week it was happiness. I started on Monday with a rough start, but I ended the week happy. There were times I even was wondering why am I happy right now. I normally would get mad in this situation or whatever. But the lord was on my side the whole time. Its amazing how many things I can get done and conquered when the Lord is on my side the whole time. I used him the whole week and went to him often. I stayed happy the whole week and that would make me even more happy. I had a rough week, but I didn't even notice it and no one else did because I was too busy being happy. So I will continue my happiness this week and keep that on my mind.
This week I am focusing on Charity. When I was at church today, I was wondering what I could focus on, and couldn't think of anything. But then I looked back at my day earlier. The first thought I had when I woke up this morning was, "I want to make some cookies for my family!" So I decided that that must be what I'll do all week. Focus on others and not on me. We have been having lessons in Relief Society on it as well so it has been on my mind. Anyways...
I'll end with a quote by Marjorie Hinckley. This is my favorite quote I think. This is gunna be my theme and my push this week. wish me good luck!...
"I dont want to drive up to the pearly gates in a shiny sports car, wearing beautifuly tailored clothes, my hair expertly coiffed, and with long, perfectly manicured fingernails. I want to drive up in a station wagon that has mud on the tires from taking the kids to scout camp. I want to be there with grass stains on my shoes from mowing Sister Schenk's lawn. I want to be there with a smudge of peanut butter on my shirt from making sandwhiches for a sick neighbor's children. I want to be there with a little dirt under my fingernails from helping to weed someone's garden. I want to be there with the children's sticky kisses on my cheeks and tears of a friend on my shoulder. I want the Lord to know I was really here and that I really lived." ~Marjorie Hinckley

Pictures of France compared to my life

I know I never uploaded my pictures from France. So here are my best pictures for you. But this is mostly for me. I have started to become a grumpy, tired Bridget and I didn't like it because I was always happy and energetic. Last night I had a breakdown with Vanessa and I'm sorry she had to deal with it, but thats what best friends are for right? Well one thing that I established was that I need to start my days of right, and they go alot more smooth.

I'm also going back to my good habits and working on a christ-like attribute every week. This week is happiness. So i'm doing things that are making me happy. Yesterday was not the best start, but we all make mistakes and I have the rest of the week to work on. So I'm doing this post for me. To start my day off right and to hopefully help me to be happy today. Here we go!:

I would have to say, I felt closest to my Heavenly Father in this moment in my life. Besides when I'm in the temple. The wind was blowing a brisk, cold air. The ocean tide was splashing up on the rocks and onto my cheeks. I was in France having the time of my life. The sun was bright at first. But I stood there for almost 2 hours. Watched the whole sunset. It was thee most beautiful thing that I have ever seen in my life before. It was truly breathtaking. As I stood up on top of the wall surrounding the city, I realized that, no matter where I am and what I'm doing, my Heavenly Father is watching over me and giving me the sweet tender mercies like a magnificent sunset in France to let me know that he's watching over me and that he loves me. I was truly speechless this whole time and I did not want to leave. I wanted to stay there the whole time. I felt so away from the whole and so close to heaven. What a heavenly moment I had that I will never forget.

Life is always a journey up. A journey towards heaven and back to home. For me right now, a journey back to happiness. Each day happier and happier back to normal. A journey to become more and more christ-like everyday. Each day I become closer and closer to him. Some days are harder than others. some days we take two stairs at a time. Some days we need to take a break. Some days we fall back one. but some day we'll also make it and that some day will make all the other some days worth it.

Everyone is like a box of flowers. The whole world probably ignores them and just takes advantage of them. But Bridget will always see them and notice them and find the beauty in them.

Let me describe this scene: You walk through this old, smelly, and scary walkway in between two big old old buildings. It had been raining all day. Everything was wet and the air was cold. You walk through this skinny door way and there is this big open court yard. It looks like it could be from a scary movie. Back in the olden days it was a graveyard. Skulls and things are everywhere and on the buildings surrounding you. The trees are lifeless and dark. The grass is dead and colorless. The clouds are ready to pour. The sun has dissapeared. You get the chills up and down your spine. You feel the walls coming in and now you feel like the main character from a scary movie. You are in the scary movie now and you dont know what to think. But as soon as you think life could end right now, you turn your head to the right. On the windows of an old building there are colorful, full of life, happy, comforting, and beautiful pansies sitting in window boxes lining the whole building. You take a deep breath and realize that you are back to yourself and back to your own life. Things are normal again and you couldn't feel happier. :)

I absolutely love this picture. One of my best. But i love it also because it just makes me happy looking at it, and putting myself in the picture and remembering the moment I took this picture and feeling the air of France all around me. Oh how i love it.

But this picture makes me think. The Eiffel Tower is a worldwide figure. Anyone will see it and know what it is. anyone. This tower stands tall and immovable. The world has gone through alot of crap. France has gone through alot of crap. But it still stands tall. Has not moved an inch and will not let anything break it down. The Eiffel Tower is the tallest building in France. Clears all buildings by far through the whole country.

I want to be an Eiffel Tower someday. Anyone will see a picture of me and know who I am and who I stand for. I will stand tall and firm in times of war and trouble around me and within me. I will not let anything or anyone break me down and I will continue to be a world-wide figure, so to speak, and always seen as a beautiful figure that is amazing and firm in her beliefs. I am an Eiffel Tower and I always will be. I will always stand taller than evryone else around me and I will always be striving to keep that label.

101 things that make BRIDGET happy!! :)

so i've been thinking alot lately. One of my good friends said to me one time that I'm always happy and cheerful, but I don't think so sometimes, I just try to always seem happy. lol so I wanted to see if I had alot of things in my life that make me happy. so I started to compile a list of things that make me happy. some are really weird. some are very temporal and some are not. some are very cheesy, and some make most people happy. so here we go... no laughing! :)
1. family
2. friends
3. church
4. Dr. Pepper
5. kids
6. pink
7. blogging
8. the question game
9. facebook
10. the scriptures
11. Vannessa!!!
12. Little Rascals
13. my nieces and nephews
14. singing
15. Rascal Flatts
16. my patriarchal blessing
17. Peach Rings
18. boys 1
9. money
20. shopping alone
21. reading
22. Peanut M&M's
23. Flowers
24. Bridget time
25. reading about my ancestors
26. my young women girls
27. working out
28. laughing hard
29. volleyball
30. Italian food
31. running
32. cereal
33. bows
34. sunflowers
35. Daisies
36. pearls
37. speaking french
38. math
39. camping
40. boating
41. Twix
42. my journal
43. txting
44. hugs
45. one on one time
46. watermelon
47. music
48. sleeping in
49. being loved
50. praying. deep praying
51. hamburgers
52. massages
53. taking naps
54. sonic slushies
55. sleeping in
56. girls camp
57. France
58. love
59. writing
60. Melanie
61. going to church
62. cleaning
63. doing hair
64. eating
65. summer
66. nicknames
67. the scriptures
68. frisbee
69. being outside
70. Celien Dion
71. Roller Coasters
72. cheetos... hot and cold. :)
73. tanning
74. dresses
75. jewelry
76. Lagoon
78. Bear Lake
79. the beach
80. laying out in the hot sun
81. reading a good book
82. making cards
83. service for others
84. cooking
85. bearing my testimony
86. swedish fish
87. drinking cold water
88. taking a hot shower
89. bath time
90. writing in my journal
91. talking
92. laughing hard
93. playing with people's hair
94. making others happy
95. waterskiing
96. watching any princess movie
97. cleaning
98. decorating
99. doing crafts
100. playing games
101. Vanessa!!!
.... I finally finished it!!! i'm sure i have things twice... so let me know if you find one twice. well Vanessa is on here twice because she ALWAYS makes me happy. not one time she hasn't. I just needed to finish this list so that i have it in college when i'm down in the dumps and I need something to cheer me up. :) this is mostly for me. glad i finished it. YAY!!!

stressed out

I'm sorry I haven't blogged in ages. and theres alot going on in my life I have enough to blog about. but thats the thing. I have way too many things going on, i dont have time to blog. I'm getting really stressed with college. nothing is working the way i would like it to. I just checked this morning on my classes and all of a sudden it says i'm not registered for any classes. my apartments won't get back to me to let me know if i even have a place to live in 3 weeks. I'm trying to get things organized in my room and such, but work seems to win my time. but i'm still complaining about the money because I can barely pay for tuition as it is, i'm not going to have any money left. I know the second I'm left at college i'm gunna cry my eyes out because i'm gunna feel so lonely. i feel lonely now anyways. I have absolutely no time for anything anymore. I'm such a grump these days because NOTHING at BYUI is working out for me. everything is going wrong. i have no idea why I'm still going there. What a hassel. anyways, just thought i would at least update my life on here. Stressed out completely to no end is my life right now. yay.

Happy as can be!

Just thought this would be a great day to post, because I don't have very many days that I'm REALLY happy like the last few days. Because I work full time at the Reel theatre and have no time for Bridget, for family, and for friends life is a little stressing. So I have to make time for family and friends. I'm already exhausted from work and grumpy from all the rude customers, so hanging out isn't my choice to my free time. I just want to sleep. haha. what a sad life. :)
but I've been so happy lately and I have no idea why. But I'm just really really happy. its kinda a weird feeling, isn't that sad? anyways... I was in such a good mood last night, so I decided to do a bow attack to Vanessa and Kira, they're basically my roomates. Vanessa had filled up my car with gas earlier in the day, and bought the sneakers that i've wanted for a while, but never bought because I'm trying to save save save for college. and i'm so excited to wear them!!! anyways, so I wanted to tell Vanessa thanks and Kira is just such a great friend and I love how much she just is so happy lately. =] so I attacked their front door with bows, (which is perfect. cuz who else would attack someone's door with bows other than this bow girl right here?) and wrote them a cute little poem that went somethin like this....
You've been attacked by you know WHO
I love Vanessa and Kira TOO
I've been thinkin of YOU
and thank you for all that you DO
I LOVE YOU!!!

and then I gave them each their favorite treat. They were both out doing things with their families, so it was perfect timing. They both came home to a "bow"-ed door w/ hearts everywhere, the little note, and a treat. I hope I made their day, because they ALWAYS make my day and I just love them so much. So thats what I did last night.
But the happiness hasn't worn off yet, and I'm so glad because I just love it when I'm happy and so does everyone else. hahaha. I was really really happy the day before too. i dont know whats getting into me but whatever I'm doing I better keep doin.
So if you get bow attacked in the next few days.... you know that Bridget is still happy. :)
love you guys!

A Father's Blessing

Well I ended up having my dad give me a blessing. It was a great idea for me to get a blessing from him. Besides the fact that I know what I'm doing with my life now, I learned so many more things from that blessing. My parents really do care about me and what is going on in my life and I need to go to them more often when I am struggling. My parents are just amazing and have such a spirit about them. I love it and glad I was raised by them!! But I also realized that I need to rely on my father in heaven more often. I am too much of a person that wants to do things on my own and figure things out my own way and dont want to put my life in other people's hands. But i've learned how to do that a little bit better now that Vanessa is around and changing me for the better. But i have been praying everynight the last two weeks and its amazing how my day goes better when I start and end with a prayer. But i need to go to him more often and I'm so glad he's fogiving and he still wants me to come to him even though i completely kept him out of my life before. Its an amazing feeling. But here's the news that I think all of you have been waiting for..... drum roll please........ BYUI!!! yes I made the right decisions before, I was just having too many complications with the school and satan was working me way too hard. so here I am back in the groove for Rexburg!! I'll be keeping you posted on how the college prep is comin and the stress levels rising. But i jsut have to say that I'm glad my dad is worthy enough to give me a father's blessing on the spot and my parents are caring enough and have the spirit with them enough to have an hour discussion with me about my life ahead. Thank you mom and dad and especially thank you to my heavenly father. I love you!!!

My life now: work, family and friends.

So as I think about what has happened since the last time I blogged, HOLY VACHE!!! (thats cow in french. just by the way)
I finished last week off great. I spent so much more time with Vanessa. Imagine that? :) I ended up going to Twin Falls with her for the 4th and it was a great holiday i must say. We had a great trip down and a good chance to have Vanessa Bridget talk. Even though we already had a week of it. haha. The drive was so quick because we just talked and talked. Great memories. Then we had the fireworks and jazz at her sister, Heather's house there in Twin. She is such a great little hostess and I really had a great time. It was fun. I got a little homesick cuz I didn't spend it with my famiy. but it wasn't too bad. We watched the fireworks that Twin put off and we watched it from their front lawn, it was great. Then Zach, Heather's husband, put off quite a show doing his own fireworks. He was so funny to watch his little boy come out. haha. anyways. then we played Rock Band in the basement and that was fun. I'm not a big lover of Rock Band, but I had fun just watching them and seeing them enjoy themselves. and Heather's girls are so cute!!! Sydney thought my name was Midget, so thats what she called me the whole weekend and Mallory is so darn cute. We had some great bonding moments when we did the princess puzzle together and when we were snuggling on the love sack and I was tickling her. Vanessa and I enjoyed sleeping in the, finally, queen sized bed because I slept in her little twin bed for a week. But let me explain myself before you judge me. She has ear wigs in her apartment and some were coming out of her couch, so I didn't want to sleep in it so I slept in her bed. lol it was okay though because we're so close and we both love cuddling. hahaha. well in Twin we had a queen size bed to share and it was good but bad at the same time cuz when I was cold and wanted to cuddle with her, she didn't want to. I think she was tired of cuddling with me. hahahaha. anyways. Thanks Vanessa for a great week and Holiday, and thanks to the Kelsey's for making the 4th a great one for me this year. Love you guys!!
the drive home was also really fast because we talked and talked about more things. we played the question game and we did not listen to one ounce of music cuz it was Sunday. then we spent the rest of Sunday together at church and dinner and the fireside. oh man. what a week!!!! =]
well this week has been pretty eventful as well. I have gotten alot accomplished and I am so proud of myslef. I have talked to some people that I never thought I would. I broke down some very thick walls that I thought would be up forever and ever. But the hardest part of this whole week was dealing with not seeing Vanessa every waking moment. so funny thing... on sunday we were talking about how we probably wouldn't see each other untilWednesday and we ended up seeing each other more than once a day everyday so far this week. hahaha. LOVE IT!!! But today has already been a long day and its just gunna drag on longer and longer. I was so excited to sleep in and have a day off from work cuz I dont go in till 8:30 tonight to put up new posters and fix the marquees for the new movies coming tomorrow. But NO!!! I had to watch my neighbors and I'm so mad. I had so many things to get done today and all I got done was blogging. lol oh well. I told her that I wouldnt be able to watch them anymore though. I almost work full time at the theatre now. I work everyday but Sunday, have two double shifts, one midnight shift, one kid shows shift, and marquees. YUCK!!! so I am getting so exhausted from work I can't do anything anymore. and when I do, I have no energy. I don't like it. I'm known for my bubbly personality and my energy. well not anymore. but I got paid yesterday and my pay check was twice as big as my very first pay check and it was so much more than I expected. and I'm now working more and minumum wage goes up at the end of the month. wahoo!!!!!!! well my dad is giving me a blessing tonight before I go to work because I'm struggling with the whole college thing. I dont have good feelings about it anymore and I dont want to go to BYUI anymore. I'm so confused and dont know what to do with my life anymore. I need to know what is best for me and my situation in life right now. I have another perfect plan if BYUI is not for me. and we'll see after tonight and more prayerful nights. I'll keep u posted on my decision. just keep me in your prayers and if any of you have any suggestions, let me know. i can use all the help I can get.
oh one last thing about work, since its my only life now. I got employee of the month!!!! WAHOOOO!!!!! I was so excited. and I'm a 98.5%. The 1.5 was one time I forgot my name tag, and the one other time I was a minute late. and thats it. they said this is a really really high percentage and they were all so proud of me. =] i got $25.00 on my gift card and I can't wait to start eating candy at work. lol My manager said I'm really good with the customers, bubbly and friendly. I'm really really hard working and trustworthy. I sont complain and I will do anything they ask me to do, but twice as better as they expected. He is just in love with the fac that he hired me and he does not want me to leave. thats why I'm working so much because he loves it when I work and everything about it. anyways... hope i didn't miss anything. LOVE YOU!!!

My heart is healed. <3

First of all the song you are listening to right now. Its called Forever by Rascal Faltts and I just have to say that this song is mine and Vanessa's theme song and its perfect to be listening to while I talk about us and this weekend.
So this week my sister, mom and dad went to Girls Camp and I thought I was going to be a little lonely when I wasn't working. It was the best week ever though. I decided to stay over at Vanessa's apartment because one, I didn't want to sleep home alone and it would be a good opportunity for us to talk. But the best thing about the whole thing was that she said she was gunna give me a massage. She gave me an amazing foot massage the first night I stayed there, but the second night we were going to have a Little Rascals night and she was going to give me a massage. well lets just say, the TV didn't even turn on once. We started talking about a few things and it just kept on going and going and going. It was great. Wanna know how long we talked for? till 6:30 in the morning. yup. i said it. 6:30. and the best part of the whole thing... We had to get up at 7:15 to babysit Vanessa's neice!!! hahaha. we took a few different naps during the day though. We spent the whole day together and got alot accomplished and we did some great things. I had to get into work and do Marquees and Posters, and then I spent that night laying in her bed talking again. We talked for a few hours, and then we fell asleep. I fell asleep crying just because of what we had just talked about. I woke up just crying my eyes off because she was cuddling with me and rubbing my back. I just realized that this is going to last for only two months more. I have to leave eventually and of course I'm gunna call her at least once a day if not more. and we are gunna stay close close friends. but I realized that i'm not gunna get massages from her, I'm not gunna be able to cuddle with her, and I'm not gunna get her amazing hugs that are making me cry right now just thinking about missing. so she woke up too and notice I was crying and we started talking again and we talked until almost 5. We talked about so many things and had some incredible moments together. What a friend she is. I am just so speechless about this amazing girl and I have no words to describe my feelings towards her. Finally I basically made her go to sleep because she had to go into work early this morning.
But the only thing I can say about this week with Vanessa is that even though she didn't heal my back and didn't get the opportunity to do that for me, she healed my heart and thats something that no one has been able to do and she has no idea how much I LOVE HER!!! My heart is normal again and it feels repaired, full, and ready to grow again. Thank you Vanessa. I love you more than you know and hope the next two months are even better than the last month we've known each other and hope the months without you we can survive!! =]

Whistle While You Work!

growing up I never got the meaning of the that song from Snow White that the Dwarfs sing, "Whistle While You Work." but I think I pretty much get that meaning down now. Correct me if you think I'm wrong. But working at the Reel Theatre I have learned SO much about so many different things. Its been a great experience for me. But one thing that I have learned that I needed to learn was to whistle while I worked. I needed to have a good attitute and be happy to work and serve customers, even thought most of the time I'm not. :) I never knew why waitresses wanted to spit in people's food, but I now know that feeling. There was one lady that was so mean to me, I would have spit in her popcorn if the supervisor wasn't in the consessions with me. Some people come in so grumpy, it drives me crazy!!!!! but I've learned that even though I have the biggest headache, I've been working for 8 hours, my feet are killing me, its hot, I'm grumpy, I have so much to do, people are jerks to me, I do things wrong, and I'm hungry it doesnt matter. I need to be happy and cheerful because then my co-workers want to work with me, the customers will want to come back, and I will enjoy my job more. Anyways, I am trying to lift myself up right now, and preparing for my DOUBLE SHIFT today. AAAHHH!! I go in at 11:45 and won't be home till 11:30!! isn't that just insanity?! yes. it is!! this is my first time working a double since I started working at the Reel and its been about a month. I am really enjoying the work though. Its a fun job that keeps me busy and always doing something most of the time, and thats the kind of work I enjoy. I love working with people for the most part and they are the ones that often set my mood for the rest of the day. but i'm trying to let that not get to me. I also love who I work with as well. There are a few lazy people, but its not bad enough to complain. so i'm not complaining. They are all very fun and make the work environment very exciting and up-beat. I get along with all of them, and there are some that I get along with really well. Its a great job, and everyday I pray to Heavenly Father thanking him for letting me work there. I am SO GRATEFUL!!! anyways, I gotta go get things done before I go into work. I will be whistling while I work today for sure. =]

I LOVE to see the temple!!!

When I was a little girl, my favorite song was "I Love to See the Temple" and I would sing it all the time. My family probably got sick of that song. But everytime I sing it I get really really teary eyed cuz it reminds me of when I used to sing it all the time. I remember one night in particular. We were driving to Utah in our Maroon Van. I was sitting in the back and everyone was asleep besides dad that was driving. I was sitting next to the window and was just looking out just taking in the beauty of the drive to Utah. (ok i know everyone disagrees with me right now, but I find it beautiful and I love just looking out the window and taking it all in.) I was very bored and I just started to sing that song. I usually did when I was bored or when I was happy. And I swear I sang that song for hours and hours. I just love the words and the tone in the song. I don't know how my siblings didn't kill me for snging it for hours, but they're all really patient. Anyways. I just love that song. Still do. But my whole life I have had a HUGE love for temples. So most people can say, "yeah so did I!" No, this is beyond loving the temple. My whole entire life I understood what its purpose was, and I have never ever had a day in my life that I didn't think about the temple. I just want to go there so bad!!! The first time I did Baptizms for the dead was basically the best day of my life so far. I loved the spirit there and if it was possible I would have just gotten married then so that I could go through the whol temple and be there more often.
Anyways, the reason why I write this is because I did baptizms last night. It was such an amazing trip. I would have to say one of the best and I have taken A LOT of trips to the temple. One reason was because it was with my singles ward and not my home ward. No offense, but that was one reason why it was a little better because the people there with me are a little more mature and can handle being quiet and reverent in the temple and so it just seemed to be a little more spiritual and a great reverence. I loved it. But I also got alot of answers to my prayers and I could not hold in my tears the whole night. The second I walked in I felt the spirit and I got an answer to one of my trials I'm going through. But I held in my tears because I didn't want everyone to think I was crazy. Thanks Vanessa, I can now say I know how to hold in my tears. haha. (shes the one that taught me how to, without her even knowing it!) Anyways, I spent alot of time with my heavenly father there and I know that is the place for me and my heavenly father to spend time with each other and talk. It was an amazing feeling. There was so many things that happened there, that were very personal that I won't metion. But I just have to say that its the place to be. I challenge everyone to make a goal to go to the temple more often then you are right now. You will be lifted up and strengthened. I am still glowing from last night. I hope you know that "I love to see the temple. I'm going there someday To feel the Holy Spirit, To listen and to pray. For the temple is a house of God, A place of love and beauty. I'll prepare myself while I am young; This is my sacred duty. I love to see the temple. I'll go inside someday. I'll cov'nant with my Father; I'll promise to obey. For the temple is a holy place Where we are sealed together. As a child of God, I've learned this truth; A fam'ly is forever."
I also have to say Cracker Barrel before the temple, was AMAZING. I have to say I've never had better food then last night. (well besides the amazing food in France. but that doesn't count.) I had breaded Shrimp, hushpuppies, steak fries, macaroni and cheese, applesauce, and biscuits. OH MY GOODNESS!!!! everysingle one of those items were DE-LISH!!!! I ate so much of it I was sick when I walked out. I was dared to eat all my plate, but i couldnt do it. I finished all half pound of shrimp though. :) anyways, I just had to add that in there because that definitely added to the amazazingness of the night. I have to say thanks to the ward for taking us and making it special for me. and your highness, thanks for making the trip that much more better. You know why and you know what I'm talking about, but seriously girl. I LOVE YOU!!! stay amazing.

Post Institute Adventures. = ]

So I'm lazy and I'm not going to post last weeks adventures at the Bowling Alley, but if you would really like to see them, check out Vanessa's post on it... http://vjones0828.blogspot.com/2009/06/bowling-with-my-pals.html
but here's this week's adventures after Institute. We basically live at Sonic. well maybe I should say, I basically live at Sonic. and we found out last night that we have a stalker that literally lives at Sonic. hahahaha. JK!! =] so we are pretty much picture crazy when we get together and we have a camera... so don't laugh too hard, and you may want to slip on those depends in case of laughing so hard you pee your pants off. JK. =] enjoy and check next Thursday for our next Post Institute Adventure.
To protect our identity, and our stalker, the story behind this picture will remain with the four of us. you know who you are!! good times though Hailee. love ya girl!

Drive Thru anyone? we were trying to do that pose that you do in Elementary school with the little stairway in school pictures. hahaha.

and here's my best friend, and my fiance. an arranged marriage dont worry. hahaha jk=]

Vanessa Elizabeth Jones without the Elizabeth. Your highness. the only words to decribe this amazingly amazing woman!!! love you dude.


and here is the best picture in the whole wide world. just dont ask questions. hehehe. . . i love these girls so so so so much and the WORST DAYS EVER turn into the BEST DAYS EVER!!!! always. LOVE YOU!!!

Updates!

Today has been a great day!! I slept in finally, did nothing basically the whole morning. took a long hot shower, trimmed my hair and bangs, went shopping with my mom and sister and now just waiting around for Vanessa to get done with work!! :)
I'm gunna go on a long walk with her. I'm so excited. We are both working on trying to talk better in person. We both talk really well over letter, e-mails, txts, and so forth but can't talk that well in person. So we are going to start working on it. We're gunna go for a walk and talk for hours. I can't wait. We have so many things to talk about!!! It's going to be a great thing i know! I'm so we have each other to continue to build each other up more and more and more everyday. Anyways, I'm trying to get better at writing on here everyday, and thought i better do it now because I wont have time later today.
I have institute tonight at 7. I'm really enjoying institute so far. Its been a great class. I haver learned alot already. I just wish the class was a little smaller, but its okay. After institute every week we have activities as well. Its such a great idea. it definitely convinces me to go. haha. the first week was dodge ball and i dominated that game!!!! then last week we wacthed that new Rugby movie. at this week are going to Nampa Bowl. i'm so so so excited!!!! yay! anyways... hope everyone's summer is going great. I have had a great summer so far. Love you all!!

Have a day just for YOU!!

Today is a day just for Bridget. I'm having ME time and I'm glad I am because I need it. But I'm not on here to brag what I'm doing for myself today, I'm here to get other people to have a ME day. Everyone needs ME time and not enough people realize that they need it, and not enough people actually do it. I will guarantee it right now that if you have a ME day, other things will fall into place because you're happy and especially happy about yourself. Which brings me to my other thought of the day...
Because I just graduated from high school, moving on to college, preparing for life without family around, preparing for marriage, and preparing for kids, I have noticed a few things. Sometimes you can't figure anything out in your life until you have figured out yourself. You need to know you, before you know your future husband. You need to know your weaknesses, strengths, things that make you happy, things that make you unhappy, your testimony, what motivates you, and what are some things that you need to work on in your life and work on them. You need to know everything about you before you move too fast and start learning more of life ahead. because once you get in that future life, there will be some major complications because you can't even live within your own skin. Sometimes we need time to have with ourselves to figure things out.
I have a dear dear friend that proved that to me the other day. She has a "friend" on a mission right now, and they both want to get married, but they dont really talk about stuff like that because he's on a mission and needs to focus on the Lord and the Lord's work before he focuses on her. Its been rough for her but she shows great strength in staying on the Lord's side of the whole thing and not becoming selfish about it. But he's distracted from her and struggling a little, and she has a few things that she feels like she needs to work on within herself before he comes home, and she hasn't been able to do that because she's been worked up in him. So she wrote him a letter that told him she needs the last 6 months of his mission for her and only her to work on things for her. She's not going to write him anymore and she needs to focus on her life. I totally applaude her for doing that. She had alot of guts to do it and I'm very impressed with her.
It made me realize that it's okay for Bridget to have a Bridget day everyonce in a while. Its okay to break off an almost relationship because it was just going to be a summer fling and a broken heart in the end. and its okay to a little selfish sometimes and do things for yourself and not for anyone else.
I got alot accomplished yesterday and it feels so good to have them done now. I did stop an almost summer fling because I realized that there was a broken heart in the forecast and I can't keep on doing that to me. It was hard to stop it because I liked him alot, but it was not something that would work out and I'm glad I talked to him about it. He was totally understanding and it was a great feeling. Although i did cry my eyes out, I feel alot better today. But it helps to have a team of support right behind me all the way through the whole thing. before, during, and after more than ever before. You know who you are, and you need to have a day just for you, because everyone needs to feel confident and happy in their own skin before you can help others. LOVE YOU!!

101 things that make Bridget happy

so i've been thinking alot lately. One of my good friends said to me one time that I'm always happy and cheerful, but I don't think so sometimes, I just try to always seem happy. lol so I wanted to see if I had alot of things in my life that make me happy. so I started to compile a list of things that make me happy. some are really weird. some are very temporal and some are not. some are very cheesy, and some make most people happy. I don't have 101 things yet, but decided that maybe if I make it official by putting it on my blog, it will give me motivation to finish it. I really do want to finish it. So i'm starting it now, and will continue to update it and add onto it. If there is anything that u can think of, let me know. I'm determined to find most things that truly make me happy. so here we go... no laughing! :)

1. family
2. friends
3. church
4. Dr. Pepper
5. kids
6. pink
7. blogging
8. the question game
9. facebook
10. the scriptures
11. Vannessa!!!
12. Little Rascals
13. my nieces and nephews
14. singing
15. Rascal Flatts
16. my patriarchal blessing
17. Peach Rings
18. boys
19. money
20. shopping alone
21. reading
22. Peanut M&M's
23. Flowers
24. Bridget time
25. reading about my ancestors
26. my young women girls
27. working out
28. laughing hard
29. volleyball
30. Italian food
31. running
32. cereal
33. bows
34. sunflowers
35. Daisies
36. pearls
37. speaking french
38. math
39. camping
40. boating
41. Twix
42. my journal
43. txting
44. hugs
45. one on one time
46. watermelon
47. music
48. sleeping in
49. being loved
50. praying. deep praying
51. hamburgers
52. massages
53. taking naps
54. sonic slushies
55. sleeping in
56. girls camp
57. France
58. love
59. writing
60. Melanie
61. going to church
62. cleaning
63. doing hair
64. eating
65. summer
66. nicknames
67. the scriptures
68. frisbee
69. being outside
70. Celien Dion
71. Roller Coasters
72. cheetos... hot and cold. :)
73. tanning
74. dresses
75. jewelry
76. Lagoon
78. Bear Lake
79. the beach
80. laying out in the hot sun
81. reading a good book
82. making cards
83. service for others
84. cooking
85. bearing my testimony
86. swedish fish
87. drinking cold water
88. taking a hot shower
89. bath time
90. writing in my journal
91. talking
92. laughing hard
93. playing with people's hair
94. making others happy
95. waterskiing
96. watching any princess movie
97. cleaning
98. decorating
99. doing crafts
100. playing games
101. Vanessa!!!

.... I finally finished it!!! i'm sure i have things twice... so let me know if you find one twice. well Vanessa is on here twice because she ALWAYS makes me happy. not one time she hasn't. I just needed to finish this list so that i have it in college when i'm down in the dumps and I need something to cheer me up. :) this is mostly for me. glad i finished it. YAY!!!

Things happen for a reason

I have been thinking about how things happen for a reason, and if you think about that constantly, and think about how things come about because of something or someone else. its amazing to me. Well recently I have had alot of ups and alot of downs. and all of them I know happened for a reason. There are things that we may not want to do, but if we have faith in our Heavenly Father, we will eventually get to the place that we want to go. He sees the big picture, and we only see the little picture. He knows whats best for us, and how to go about it. I learned the hard way. :) but i have learned my lesson, and I am definitely sticking to heavenly father's plan and not my own, or my friends'. I love having the gospel in my life to always help me through and guide me to where i need to go.
I am so grateful for the family that I have. I am so blessed to have them and to have them love me. I know sometimes i dont want to do what they tell me to do, but they do it out of love, and protection for me. I'm so blessed to have two parents that love me, and have siblings that love me as well. We all get along well and when we dont, we learn from our dissagreements, and move on. I'm grateful to have the friends that I have. I was out with some last night, and wanted to watch "Taken" cuz i hadn't seen it yet, and really really wanted to see it, and one of my friends had it from Red Box. but mom said I needed to come home. I was really really mad, and didn't take it well, but i learned my lesson and I feel bad for making things difficult for my parents. But it caused me to open alot to Vanessa about some things that I haven't been able to tell anyone, and she realized some things that I didn't even realize before. I'm so glad shes here! but i was crying so hard and so mad, I went to bed without talking much to her, and not letting her tell me what she thought of it. but i found a surprise on my car this morning from her. she bought me a pack of Dr. Pepper and was so excited about that!!! and she wrote me a long letter, which as you can tell i love long letters haha. she totally lectured me and told me all the things that i need to do better and fix in my life. She has a good reason to because she has been through her struggles and doesn't want me to go through it like she did. I love it. I mean it was hard to hear that I needed to be better at loving my parents and being understanding and loving. but i do need to, so its what i need to work on right? anyways, i'm so grateful for heavenly father and all that he does me. He loves me so much that he puts me through things to grow and become a better person. He puts people in my lives to build me up and help me through the big and litle speed bumbs. I love it.
anyways. these were my thoughts today and thought i better write it down, and maybe share it with someone that might need to hear it.
Things will always happen for a reason. A reason to make you better.

Adventures of Life!

I'm trying to get better at writing in my blog because there are so many things happening in my life right now and I know if i dont write it down, i will forget about it.
My graduation BBQ went really well. The wheather was ugly and wet all day before and during the BBQ, but about an hour before it cleared up and we had it outside that we had originally planned. except, I had spent the WHOLE day cleaning the whole house, and no even went inside. haha. oh well. now the house is clean. :) but the second we started cleaning up and stuff, it started raining, and that night it just poured and the thunderstorm was incredible! I enjoyed seeing some old friends, and church leaders there. I really did. that was the best part. to enjoy talking to friends and talking about great memories and my bright future. thank you everyone for coming. and i have to thank my family for doing os much work for getting the day just right. I am very appreciative of you guys. The food turned out great too. My dad made amazing hamburgers and I loved it!! we had some great fruit, which i loved to no end, and the food just kept on becoming better and better. thanks!! But I got some really incredible gifts and I dont think I expected much to be honest. I got some really cute, funny, and thoughtful cards, which are my favorite. =] but i got a laptop, laptop sleebve, wireless internet, printer, sheets, and laundry hamper from my family. I loved it so much and I was so shocked when I got the laptop. I love it so much!! thanks Adam and Kat. But I got really really great gifts. I could go on and on about all my favorite gifts because I loved every single one of them and couldn't be happier. THANK YOU!!!
Work went alot better my second day. I seriously hated my first day. I didn't know how to do anything and it was just frustrating. But the second day I did better and actually did things and did it with confidence. Its really a pretty easy job, its just hard getting used to things that you have never even known before. so i go into work tonight, so we'll see how i do today. Seth wants me working the till today, and i'm really really nervous. but hopefully he can help me out for a little bit at the begginning, but i'm a pretty fast learner. The one thing that I hate about my job, which most people can say about their work, is that it takes me away from some things that I want to do. Like I'm missing my priest and Laurel campout this weekend, that I have been planning since November. is gunna be hard to miss it, and its gunna be hard for them to not have me there cuz i'm in charge of alot of things. But I work at a movie theatre, theres no way I can get out of working weekends. oh well, that just means more money. which is good.
Singles ward is going SO much better than it was before, and it was going pretty well before. I think it has just helped to be there for a while and the people are realizing that I'm here and I'm here to stay, so finally people are talking to me, and introducing me to others. which is good. and Vanessa is staying in the ward, so that makes the ward 10 X better. seriously. i think all of us would fall apart with her gone. But on Sunday, we had Single Mingle at Cassidy Wasden's house and I had SO much fun. we played volleyball for a little, which is always fun for me. But then some of us sat around the fire and played BIG BOOTY!!!! I love this game and always played it at girls camp, but i haven't had this much fun playing it before. We finally got most of the people there playing and it was SO much fun. I was BIG BOOTY for a long while, and it was fun. but i was out once Paul sat next to me. we were singing our little chant at the begginning, which is the best part, and he totally messed it up, and i couldn't stop laughing, so i was out. :) but once I was back in the normal circle, it was fun to play around with out so much seriousness. hahaha. good times. but then I got an okay from Dad to go to Vanessa's house to watch Best Two Years. We had already laughed our heads off today, but never this much before. Seriously, we laughed at every single thing!! we started a list of things that we have in common because Vanessa + Bridget = Eternity. :) anyways, we started on it, and last night we on a page and a half list of things in common. There are a few that are inside jokes, but some other ones are just really weird that we have in common, cuz they aren't common things. =] anyways, someday, I'll have to put our list up on here. we're still looking for some more because our goal is to have 101 things that Vaness and Bridget have in common. we're almost halfway there right now. anyways, making that list was so much fun and I HAVE NOT LAUGHED SO HARD IN MY LIFE BEFORE!!!! anyways. then yesterday we spent all day together too. I helped her out with FHE that was that night. It was just fun to spend some time with her. We had some more great laughs, but then again some really great serious talks and we both needed to get out and to hear. so glad Vanessa and I are friends. Then at FHE we had some great fun. I loved roasting the Starburts and having some great laughs with some people from the ward. Good memories. I did some really adventurous things. I jumped the ditch like 10 times to get pine cones and needles to start the fire. I grabbed a waterbottle out of the fire. I only got a dollar for it though. =] and I opened the root beer bottle with my forearm. haha. Phil taught me how to go that. and then I made him Chug the root beer. oh good times. anyways. that was a shortened version of my last two days with Vanessa. What a blast she is to hang out with, but shes gone through SO SO SO much in her life, she knows what things are to be taken serious and what things are to be treasured. I love that about her. We were txting last night and she was crying!!! I just couldnt believe it. I was crying, obviously. but anyways. yesterday was interesting. I LOVE YOU VANESSA!

Updates on Bridget's exciting life

Where do i start. i've had so much stuff going on, i dont even know where to start. this may be non-chronologically in order. i'm just gunna write whatever comes to my mind first. =]

I GRADUATED!!! YAY!! what an adventure graduation is. I graduated with a 4.0. so i was a Summa Cum Laude graduate. becuase of that, i was put on a committe for graduation. I volunteered to be on the decoration committee. and because of my organization, leadership, and love to be in charge, i was put as the leader of the decoration committee. so i did alot of work trying to get to together and making sure everything came out right. it was stressful, but when we were done. i felt so proud of myself because i did it all, with the help of my committe. we had a few meetings and planned out everything that we were going to do. but up to a week before, we really couldnt do much. so the week before graduation, and graduation day was so hectic. but it was good. it kept me out of trouble and out of being really emotional. So we decorated the whole Idaho Center Thursday afternoon. we started about 10 ish and ended about 2:30. so i think we made good timing. here's all that we did. set 30 mums across the stage (which was my big project that i was very stressed out for. i bought them and decorated all of them) evenly, and properly. it looked so so so nice. i loved it so much. it was all me!! :) then we wrapped streamers across the stage, and along the railings and stuff. then we used duct tape across the isle and wrote a 2 0 0 9. it was so legit. then we made some look-alike drapes with our streamers in the entrance that all graduates walk in at the beginning. it was really cool looking. then we made the balloon archway that was huge, so good looking, and fun to make. that took most of the day to do, but we did an amazing job at it. good job guys. then we wrote SHS in the entrance before the archway in duct tape and it looked really cool. we had a few different places with streamers because we had tons of extras. and we had a few bunches of balloons here and there as well.

then graduation came and went. it came way too fast. its crazy that its already over and done with now. All Summa Cum Laude graduates gave their favorite quote towards the beginning. mine was, "Don't cry because its over. Smile because it happened." -Dr. Seuss. I was really nervous because i had to say this in front of thousands of people. but it went well. I finally got to walk across the stage and get my diploma. finally. it was nerve racking. but that moment right there was so worth the late night studying, the no life because of homework, and the rediculous amount of time spent on school work. I dont regret it one bit. The song that the choir sang. Omni sol. was a tear jerker. they are so amazing at singing and it was so so so good. I cried alot at that song. I cried at a few of the speeches. mostly Cameron Rickers though because we go way back. best buds. but all the speeches were great. short. bu well said and memorable. i loved it. then the crying all started. the class song turned on. "Here's to the Night" by eve6. we circled around, turned the tassels, and threw the caps up in the air!! what a rush. then everything broke loose. i was trying to get as many pictures in as i could. but i didn't get everyone sadly. but it was good to people like Mr. King. (which I requested that he read names, and he even got to read mine. it was the best way to have my name read!!! i cried.) and Brother Chandler. But the only two times i really cried that night was when i saw Shaylee Hatch and Mamma Morriss. Shaylee Bo Baylee has been a little sister to me for such a long time and i love her so much. I know I wont be able to see her much anymore and its the saddest feeling in the world. Then Mamma Morriss was hard to say good-bye to. I have spent a lot of time with this amazing woman. we have had alot of late night talks at her house and I love her to no end. I know I will be seeing her more, but not as much because i'll be at college. but she's my best friend's mom so i know i'll see her hopefully a little inbetween life. I had fun hugging all my friends and taking fun pictures because i love love love both of those things. But it was sad because now that i think about it, that was the last time i will see alot of my peers. some of them had a big impact on me. I would also thank my family that came as well. They have been my ultimate push to get good grades, to be a good little girl, and to just be me. Mom and Dad always pushed me to have good grades and to never skip. They have taught me alot throughout the last 12 years in school. Katrina has been the biggest impact on me to get good grades because she always did and it seemed like she did it with a breeze. she was always doing homework and doing good things and I will always the late night talk we had recently about high school. you got me through those last few months and i'm glad i'm not the only one that stuggles with it. :) Ryan has always seemed to give me the right advice when i needed it. I will never ever forget one of the first days that he came home from his mission. I asked him a question one night. he went to the scriptures and answered my question with a scripture. I still look at that scripture often. I love it. You may not remember it, but it was the best answer to any of my questions that I have ever received. Because you went on your mission, i gained such a stronger testimony and i am so grateful that you left because you taught me alot when you were gone. thank you for always being there. Aimee. i know i haven't known you forever, but it seems like i have. You are the most down to earth person that i know. You are so real and true to yourself. I have really been working on that alot the last few years in school. I realize the importance of being me and no one else. I need to have integrity and be Bridget with everyone that i'm with. I hope you know that I look up to you and I love you. Adam you have been a true blessing in my life as well. You are always always the one to come up to me and making me feel like my problems can be solved, and that I am the only one on this planet when we are talking. you have a talent to make people feel 10 times better when they're done talking to you, or being around you. you are so nice to everyone and i have tried to apply that in my life because i realize the greatness that you put in lives because of your nature. and Cam. you're so sweet and cute!!!! =]

but then i went home to get changed for a blasty blast of a night. some of my friends car pooled together to Wahooz/Boondocks for our grad party night. We got there about 11 ish and were there till 4 in the morning. it was so crazy fun. I was wired, running around, screaming, and crazy all the way up to about 3:30 and then i had the biggest crash ever. I was mostly wired with my 8 glasses of Dr. Pepper, and all the candy. hahaha. but it was good to be wired. I had so much fun with Mel and Chels. we had some really great laughs on the go-carts. I will never forget it ladies.

what else is going on in my life right now? oh ya!! I finally got the job at the Reel Theatre. I'm starting tomorrow!!! i'm so nervouse but excited to start working and get some $$$!!! Because I work there now, I can get me and three other people in for free with me. So i expect all of you guys to never pay to get into the Reel anymore. why pay when you get can in for free with me? so just call me and let me know and we can go watch a movie together when i'm not working!! I'll have to let you know how the first few weeks on the first job goes. I also have a permanent summer babysitting job for my neighbors. Its just in the mornings, so its perfect cuz i wont ever go into the theatre till 11. and i also got another offer yesterday to work at Hallmark. I dont know what to do. I really really need more money to get to college. and working a thrid job will help. Hallmark will be willing to work around my theatre working hours. but i want some kind of a summer. I have so many things to do with so many people and i need to have fun before i go off to college and not see alot of my friends for a while. what do you guys think i should do?

I have also moved to the singles ward. I know. i'm crazy. but i know thats where i need to be. i've had some amazing experiences so far in the singles ward and so i know thats where Bridget needs to be right now. The best part of me being a part of the singles ward is a girl named Vanessa Jones.

I am actually speechless right now about this amazing girl. She has gone through alot in her life, and she is so wise about alot of things that i'm not, and she helps me out so much. She is one of those girls that is like my best friend, but shes almost 22 so shes like my older sister. I have had alot of good laughs with her because shes freakn hilarious, i've had alot of spiritual moments with her because shes so strong in the church, I've had alot of bonding moments with her because shes so amazing, and i've had a few long talks with her because she is so talkative and helpful. I have been struggling with a few things the last few weeks, and she has been there every single time, no doubt. She knows when i need a laugh, a hug, a lecture, a talk, a slushie, a smile, a story, or a txt. We are alot alike and that helps because she knows what a want and when without me saying anything. She has helped me with alot of my questions about a few things, and has been an answer to my prayers plenty of times. But she says i have been an answer to her prayers as well. This is one of the biggest reasons why I am going to the singles ward because I am for her and she is for me. I love her so much. shes so nice to me, and she laughs at me all the time and i love it because i never felt like the funny one. haha. shes so wierd but you all know i am, so we're perfect to be friends. haha. shes so smart and bright, she knows what she wants in her life and she knows where she is going. I love that about her. I hope i can be as cool as she is right now. =] anyways, i could go on and on and on about her. she is truly an answer to my prayers and i would like to thank her for everything. I love you Vanessa Elizabeth Jones. without the Elizabeth. :)

i feel like i'm forgetting something. I may get on later today to finish if i think of anything. anyways. sorry it was long, but i've been so emotional lately and thoughtful about life, I just had to say it now. enjoy the pictures. :)

A Reel Employee?!

So today, I had a few minutes to stop and breath. It's my last week of high school. Friday is my last day and I graduate on the 28th. I am so excited, but nervous. I know what I want in life, but there are thigns that come unexpectantly and I dont know if I am prepared for those bumps in life. But bring it on! So amongst all my studying and homework doing because of finals week, I am a little stressed, sleep deprived, busy, and sometimes lazy about other things.
It has been a relatively niec week. The wheather has been amazng and in the 90s. I now only have four classes total, two each day. I graduated from seminary on sunday. It was a bitter-sweet moment. I had to speak at graduation. that was an interesting day. But again, dont have time. gotta go study for AP stats test for tomorrow. but anyways, because I graduated from seminary, I dont have to go anymore. and because I went to france I dont have to take my french final, which has been heavenly not to study. I dont even have to come to class. so coming home at 11 on one day and not going to school till 11 is my schedule. its great. the classes i do have left, I have already done my finals too, so all i have left is stats and I'm golden. can't wait for that to be done with. anyways. because I had so much time on my hands this afternoon, I decided to go do some job searching. I had heard from one of my YSA friends, that the Reel theatre was hiring. so I got right on that. I went over there, grabbed the application, filled it out in my car, was on my way home, and Seth, the manager, called me even before I got home and told me he wanted to interview me today at 3. so I got back over there, and had the interview. It went pretty well I think. He said I have pretty good odds in geting hired. so i am so pumped about that. he seemed to really like me and impressed with me. He's a family friend, so he already kind of knew me anyways. which I think helped alot in my position!! anyways, he said that he would be letting me know soon if i get the job or not. so I will definitely put a little post up on here if I get it or not. It is going to be a busy rest of the week, busy weekend, and a busy next week cuz of graduation. I am in charge of decorations at graduation because of my GPA and its a huge responsibility thats keeping me from alot of my fun activities and things that I want to do. But its good for me. I need to stay busy. anyways. hope and pray all of you that I get the job, and if i do, you SO have to come and visit me. :) well not the first few weeks, cuz I really wont know what i'm doing and it may seem weird to come and watch me make a fool of myself. haha. anyways, its been a very eventful last month. I have joined the singles ward officially. I had gone to a few FHE nights. I had gone a few activities with some of the girls from the ward, and went to my first church last sunday. It was a great thing for me I think. I think i'm ready to move on to bigger and better things. things that I know are the best for me right now. Relief Society was good, and it was an amazing lesson that i needed to hear. I know thats where i need to be right now. I have clicked perfectly with the girls there and have had the best few weeks with them. I love them so much. I havent really clicked with the guys yet though. but i'm okay with that. I'm not gunna date serious until i get off to college. so here's to a great summer!!!!! i cant wait. best time of the year. I'm already craving Sonic happy hour everyday, I'm getting a tan on my legs, I get urges to go to the lake often, I might have a job, I have a lot of dates alreadty planned for the summer and its gunna be so much fun. love all you guys and hope to see you soon and hear from you soon. :)

RIP Raven Elizabeth Jeffords

Dear Raven,
I had the great opportunity to know you Raven. I miss you and will always love you and keep you dear to my heart. I remember when we were younger and we played at your house all the time. I can clearly remember one day in particular. It wasn't a special day in particular. It was another day with you. We had played with your lizards and had snacks for the day. We decided to go outside that day in your backyard. We chased butterflys and giggled as we played with them. I remember it was almost summer and the sun was out and bright that day. Dont ask me why, but I remember this specific thing about you and I have never been able to forget it since I heard that you had Leukemia and since I heard of your passing.
Your hair was down to your waste. It was golden brown and curly. I just remember looking at your hair and the sun was almost reflecting off of it was so shiny. You had the most beautiful hair and I have never been able to let go of that image in my mind about you. You were the reason why I wanted to grow out my hair and have beautiful gorgeous hair. Recently when my hair was incredibly long, I would often think about you. When I was ready for it, I decided to donate my hair to locks of love and thought about you constantly in the whole process. Thought about all those little girls out there that used to have gorgeous hair like you, but now dont, due to cancer, just like you.
Since you've been diagnosed with Leukemia I always thought you were here to change my views on life. But you weren't. You were here to change the views of everyone's views on life. You always had a smile on your face, no matter what. Even when you had no hair, when you were in pain, or when you had nothing going right in your life you always were so happy, smily, positive, and sweet to everyone. I loved that about you.
Once we grew up, and the wards split up, and you were diagnosed with Leukemia we never really continued to spend time with each other. But I continued to see you as the beautiful, sweet, and loving friend that I have.
You passed away last Saturday and I was truly sad that day. Once I heard that you were gone, I cried, and thought, "who's gunna be the happy smily girl in my life now?" But I have done alot of reflections and I have decided that I am going to be happy and cheerful just like you were. I'm gunna be the happy person in my life. I need to be grateful for what I have and always have a smile on my face cuz I will never know what kind of difference I will have on someone, like you did with me.
I could go on and on about all that I learned from you and how I am changed woman because of your life in my life. I know that you are happy now. I know that you have your beautiful hair back and you can smile with your Eternal Father now. I want you to know that I love you. I miss you. I am grateful for you. God be with me until we meet again!

Senior Skip Day!!

Senior skip day was on the 29th of April. it was a wednesday. it was amazing!!! i never thought i would love senior skip day. i just thought it would be another day spent alone and spent on the computer. :) but i decided to make the best of it and got friends together and planned things. so heres the low-down on what i did and why is it considered AMAZING!!...
I woke up about 6:30 (i know. lame. i didnt sleep in. but if you knew me better you would know it wasnt a big deal for me. I cant sleep in very well. I go to bed early and wake up early. so i wa okay with this early rise.) and went to the rec center with Mel. It was so much fun, but more uplifting and in great need of than anything. when Mel and I were little we spent alot of our time either at her house or at the rec and we havent been there together in such a long time. it was fun to remember the good ol days and things we used to do. funny how it all works out. but we sat in the hot tub, the deep pool, and the warm pool just talking the whole time. we talked about college, life ahead of us, having kids, friends, the past, life in general, things that we struggle with, and friends that have hurt our hearts deeply. it was so much fun. i just have to add a side not right here.... I LOVE YOU MELANIE!!! you have always been the friend that i can go to and talk to stuff like this. we have had some really fun moments full of laughter, but we have been filled with deep conversations like this and thats why i freakin love you!! you have been my friend since I was four and we are still the best of friends today...... so once we spent 2 hours there we were off to Chelsea's house for breakfast. we made a load of a breakfast but it was a delicious load! we had, peach and strawberry milkshakes, lemonade, eggs, sausage, toast, and german pancakes. YUM!! good times friends. heres where i add a side note on Chelsea..... I LOVE YOU CHELSEA!!!! you and i clicked right from the beggining. we never knew each other even existed before feshman year english class with Ms. Thomas. I will never ever forget those laughs. hahahahaha. thats where i learned the art of having a whole conversation in alphabet signing and so much more. we have stayed great friends since then. and you know why? becasue you're freakin amazing chelsea. you're so sweet and i love the way you make me feel about myself. you always put a smile on my face and i'm waiting for the day when you dont. :) jk. but i just have to tell you, the day after i had my conversation with you know who and was depressed to no end, Mel wasnt there to comfort me and you filled that spot with no hesitation and just let me spill. sometimes thats all i need. is just someone to listen to me. you really made me realize that YOU'RE AMAZING!!! i could go on and on about you my friend. i just have one more thing to say, we're gunna rock BYUI. best roomies in the history of roomies. love ya...... so after breakfast we just had to stop by at Curves and say hi to Sister Voigt at work. it was a good idea to stop and talk to her. we needed to talk to her about some things and she needed to talk to us about some things. it was cool to here her advice and to talk to her because shes THE BEST!!! so then we were OFF TO THE RACES!!! we drove to the boise mall and had some great laughs. we had fun going into Sephora and trying on all the makeup. we looked and smelled stunning walking out of there. we took some funny pics in forever 21 and then decided we better get to the movies since the movie was starting in 20 minutes. we got lost for a little bit, but this moment made me remember the talk in general conference about if you know where the temple is you will never be lost. thats so true!!!! we were lost in boise but knew that if we found the temple we would know where the movie theatre was. so i knew exactly where to go to get to the temple. we found it and voila, found the theatres. it was pretty funny. we watched 17 again. and here's where i add a side not about zac efron..... I LOVE YOU ZAC!!!!! hahah JK. but seriously. you're so good looking i just want to kipnap you..... but that was a great movie to see. it was funny, it was cute, it was inspirational, and it was zac in it. perfect! anyways... that was my novel edition of senior skip day.
any kids out there that havent had their senior skip day, all i have to say is.... DO IT!!! i skipped so many important classes it was almost funny. but i had so much fun, and it was so worth it. i dont regret skipping what so ever. dont hesitate when your senior skip day comes up. you will never regret it. promise.