Sunday, August 23, 2009

Charity~The pure love of Christ

I hope I can continue my success with my weekly christ-like attributes. I know if i make them official and put them up on my blog it wil remind me and give me a little more of a push. This last week it was happiness. I started on Monday with a rough start, but I ended the week happy. There were times I even was wondering why am I happy right now. I normally would get mad in this situation or whatever. But the lord was on my side the whole time. Its amazing how many things I can get done and conquered when the Lord is on my side the whole time. I used him the whole week and went to him often. I stayed happy the whole week and that would make me even more happy. I had a rough week, but I didn't even notice it and no one else did because I was too busy being happy. So I will continue my happiness this week and keep that on my mind.
This week I am focusing on Charity. When I was at church today, I was wondering what I could focus on, and couldn't think of anything. But then I looked back at my day earlier. The first thought I had when I woke up this morning was, "I want to make some cookies for my family!" So I decided that that must be what I'll do all week. Focus on others and not on me. We have been having lessons in Relief Society on it as well so it has been on my mind. Anyways...
I'll end with a quote by Marjorie Hinckley. This is my favorite quote I think. This is gunna be my theme and my push this week. wish me good luck!...
"I dont want to drive up to the pearly gates in a shiny sports car, wearing beautifuly tailored clothes, my hair expertly coiffed, and with long, perfectly manicured fingernails. I want to drive up in a station wagon that has mud on the tires from taking the kids to scout camp. I want to be there with grass stains on my shoes from mowing Sister Schenk's lawn. I want to be there with a smudge of peanut butter on my shirt from making sandwhiches for a sick neighbor's children. I want to be there with a little dirt under my fingernails from helping to weed someone's garden. I want to be there with the children's sticky kisses on my cheeks and tears of a friend on my shoulder. I want the Lord to know I was really here and that I really lived." ~Marjorie Hinckley

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Pictures of France compared to my life

I know I never uploaded my pictures from France. So here are my best pictures for you. But this is mostly for me. I have started to become a grumpy, tired Bridget and I didn't like it because I was always happy and energetic. Last night I had a breakdown with Vanessa and I'm sorry she had to deal with it, but thats what best friends are for right? Well one thing that I established was that I need to start my days of right, and they go alot more smooth.

I'm also going back to my good habits and working on a christ-like attribute every week. This week is happiness. So i'm doing things that are making me happy. Yesterday was not the best start, but we all make mistakes and I have the rest of the week to work on. So I'm doing this post for me. To start my day off right and to hopefully help me to be happy today. Here we go!:

I would have to say, I felt closest to my Heavenly Father in this moment in my life. Besides when I'm in the temple. The wind was blowing a brisk, cold air. The ocean tide was splashing up on the rocks and onto my cheeks. I was in France having the time of my life. The sun was bright at first. But I stood there for almost 2 hours. Watched the whole sunset. It was thee most beautiful thing that I have ever seen in my life before. It was truly breathtaking. As I stood up on top of the wall surrounding the city, I realized that, no matter where I am and what I'm doing, my Heavenly Father is watching over me and giving me the sweet tender mercies like a magnificent sunset in France to let me know that he's watching over me and that he loves me. I was truly speechless this whole time and I did not want to leave. I wanted to stay there the whole time. I felt so away from the whole and so close to heaven. What a heavenly moment I had that I will never forget.

Life is always a journey up. A journey towards heaven and back to home. For me right now, a journey back to happiness. Each day happier and happier back to normal. A journey to become more and more christ-like everyday. Each day I become closer and closer to him. Some days are harder than others. some days we take two stairs at a time. Some days we need to take a break. Some days we fall back one. but some day we'll also make it and that some day will make all the other some days worth it.

Everyone is like a box of flowers. The whole world probably ignores them and just takes advantage of them. But Bridget will always see them and notice them and find the beauty in them.

Let me describe this scene: You walk through this old, smelly, and scary walkway in between two big old old buildings. It had been raining all day. Everything was wet and the air was cold. You walk through this skinny door way and there is this big open court yard. It looks like it could be from a scary movie. Back in the olden days it was a graveyard. Skulls and things are everywhere and on the buildings surrounding you. The trees are lifeless and dark. The grass is dead and colorless. The clouds are ready to pour. The sun has dissapeared. You get the chills up and down your spine. You feel the walls coming in and now you feel like the main character from a scary movie. You are in the scary movie now and you dont know what to think. But as soon as you think life could end right now, you turn your head to the right. On the windows of an old building there are colorful, full of life, happy, comforting, and beautiful pansies sitting in window boxes lining the whole building. You take a deep breath and realize that you are back to yourself and back to your own life. Things are normal again and you couldn't feel happier. :)

I absolutely love this picture. One of my best. But i love it also because it just makes me happy looking at it, and putting myself in the picture and remembering the moment I took this picture and feeling the air of France all around me. Oh how i love it.

But this picture makes me think. The Eiffel Tower is a worldwide figure. Anyone will see it and know what it is. anyone. This tower stands tall and immovable. The world has gone through alot of crap. France has gone through alot of crap. But it still stands tall. Has not moved an inch and will not let anything break it down. The Eiffel Tower is the tallest building in France. Clears all buildings by far through the whole country.

I want to be an Eiffel Tower someday. Anyone will see a picture of me and know who I am and who I stand for. I will stand tall and firm in times of war and trouble around me and within me. I will not let anything or anyone break me down and I will continue to be a world-wide figure, so to speak, and always seen as a beautiful figure that is amazing and firm in her beliefs. I am an Eiffel Tower and I always will be. I will always stand taller than evryone else around me and I will always be striving to keep that label.

101 things that make BRIDGET happy!! :)

so i've been thinking alot lately. One of my good friends said to me one time that I'm always happy and cheerful, but I don't think so sometimes, I just try to always seem happy. lol so I wanted to see if I had alot of things in my life that make me happy. so I started to compile a list of things that make me happy. some are really weird. some are very temporal and some are not. some are very cheesy, and some make most people happy. so here we go... no laughing! :)
1. family
2. friends
3. church
4. Dr. Pepper
5. kids
6. pink
7. blogging
8. the question game
9. facebook
10. the scriptures
11. Vannessa!!!
12. Little Rascals
13. my nieces and nephews
14. singing
15. Rascal Flatts
16. my patriarchal blessing
17. Peach Rings
18. boys 1
9. money
20. shopping alone
21. reading
22. Peanut M&M's
23. Flowers
24. Bridget time
25. reading about my ancestors
26. my young women girls
27. working out
28. laughing hard
29. volleyball
30. Italian food
31. running
32. cereal
33. bows
34. sunflowers
35. Daisies
36. pearls
37. speaking french
38. math
39. camping
40. boating
41. Twix
42. my journal
43. txting
44. hugs
45. one on one time
46. watermelon
47. music
48. sleeping in
49. being loved
50. praying. deep praying
51. hamburgers
52. massages
53. taking naps
54. sonic slushies
55. sleeping in
56. girls camp
57. France
58. love
59. writing
60. Melanie
61. going to church
62. cleaning
63. doing hair
64. eating
65. summer
66. nicknames
67. the scriptures
68. frisbee
69. being outside
70. Celien Dion
71. Roller Coasters
72. cheetos... hot and cold. :)
73. tanning
74. dresses
75. jewelry
76. Lagoon
78. Bear Lake
79. the beach
80. laying out in the hot sun
81. reading a good book
82. making cards
83. service for others
84. cooking
85. bearing my testimony
86. swedish fish
87. drinking cold water
88. taking a hot shower
89. bath time
90. writing in my journal
91. talking
92. laughing hard
93. playing with people's hair
94. making others happy
95. waterskiing
96. watching any princess movie
97. cleaning
98. decorating
99. doing crafts
100. playing games
101. Vanessa!!!
.... I finally finished it!!! i'm sure i have things twice... so let me know if you find one twice. well Vanessa is on here twice because she ALWAYS makes me happy. not one time she hasn't. I just needed to finish this list so that i have it in college when i'm down in the dumps and I need something to cheer me up. :) this is mostly for me. glad i finished it. YAY!!!

Thursday, August 13, 2009

stressed out

I'm sorry I haven't blogged in ages. and theres alot going on in my life I have enough to blog about. but thats the thing. I have way too many things going on, i dont have time to blog. I'm getting really stressed with college. nothing is working the way i would like it to. I just checked this morning on my classes and all of a sudden it says i'm not registered for any classes. my apartments won't get back to me to let me know if i even have a place to live in 3 weeks. I'm trying to get things organized in my room and such, but work seems to win my time. but i'm still complaining about the money because I can barely pay for tuition as it is, i'm not going to have any money left. I know the second I'm left at college i'm gunna cry my eyes out because i'm gunna feel so lonely. i feel lonely now anyways. I have absolutely no time for anything anymore. I'm such a grump these days because NOTHING at BYUI is working out for me. everything is going wrong. i have no idea why I'm still going there. What a hassel. anyways, just thought i would at least update my life on here. Stressed out completely to no end is my life right now. yay.