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25 activities that make me happy. :)

So I bought a book at the University Book Store a few weeks ago, and its called "Happiness 101" by Gregory R. Wille. It is the best book I have read. ever. I seriously live by it. It is 18 lessons for Latter-day Saints on how to live a happier life! The one thing that I need to do is implement the things that it tells me to do, and not just read it. So the first principle that it talks about is finding activities that make me happy and center those things in my life. So I decided to do that. Here is my list of 25 things that make me happy or give me happiness. Not in particular order...
1. playing volleyball
2. Running
3. Playing games- ex. cards, active, board, and fun games
4. reading a good book
5. watching a good movie
6. Taking naps
7. Playing with hair
8. Cleaning
9. Listening to my music
10. Texting
11. Eating good food
12. Going on walks
13. Observing flowers
14. Camping
15. Boating, waterskiing, swimming, soaking up the sun, etc.
16. Shopping alone
17. Working in the yard/garden
18. Seeing new places, having new experiences
19. Attending the temple
20. Dancing
21. Taking a hot shower or bath
22. Reading my scriptures
23. Praying to my Heavenly Father
24. Blogging/writing for me
25. Doing crafts

So there's the list. Then after making the list, they say make a detailed plan on how I will implement all of those things in my daily life. So then I made a detailed plan for every one of those activities, and what can I do to make it a part of my life. For instance, I am going to make a game night on Thursday nights that I will invite all my friends to come to. I'm excited. So for each one, I planned and made goals and expectations for my life. It is good. I have done really well on it the last two days.
Just to talk through the rest of the book, that I have read so far, I will list the next four principles that I have read about.

Principle #1 : Find activities that make me happy and make them the center of my life.
Principle #2 : Simplify my life
Principle #3 : Understand the relationship between money and happiness
Principle #4 : Avoid excessive debt
Principle #5 : Enjoy the blessings of work

With my money management class, where I have to set up a budget and implement all of those things, and then reading this book, I have become really frugal and money smart. I thought I was before, but I am doing really well with my money so far this month. I have only bought things once so far and it was to buy my necessary groceries. It's been good to know that I can control my spending habits.
Anyways, the next part of the book, Part 3 is focusing on a happier life through greater physical well-being. I love this book! When I am done, if anyone wants to read it, you are more than welcome to. I did mark it up, but I wish everyone could read it, so feel free.
Hope everyone had a great Halloween weekend, I had a blast. I will be posting some great pictures soon. Have a great weekend!

Vanessa Came To Visit Me!

I had the great opportunity to have my best friend come up and visit me. We did a lot and it was great fun. We hung out Friday night and I got to meet Vanessa's friend from high school, Annie. We went out to eat and then hung out at Lindsay's house and just had fun. We played a few rounds of Wackee Six as well. ( I got my own box of Wackee Six for my half-birthday from Vanessa!) It was fun. On Saturday we went to the craft fair in Rexburg and it was fun, but I finally learned the simple way of not spending money on all my wants: don't have cash in my wallet, and don't bring mh wallet/"forget" my wallet. But it was fun to go do something that I enjoy, finally. We then went to Porter's (Rexburg's huge craft store) because they were having their huge holiday sale! It was fun to hang out with Lindsay and Vanessa, but once again I didn't spend one penny. It was a great feeling. I then went to my JV game and played some really really good volleyball. We finally won a game. It was a great game that we played and it was a great feeling. And it was awesome to have Vanessa there cheering me on. Then I had a little break, and then played on my Varsity team and we played a really tough team. They are undefeated, and had great hitters. But we did really well. We gave them a fight. We played 4 games and we were both in the 20's everytime. But we did loose. Oh well. So I enjoyed my first meal of the day, at about 3 in the afternoon. And I will admit it, I ate a whole foot long from Subway in one sitting. It was a great feeling haha. anyways, then we chilled for a little at my appt. then Vanessa gave Lindsay and Jared massages. Jared gave me some herbal sleep tea and I slept for a good hour. I needed it. If felt so good. Then we went to my enrichment activity that I was somewhat in charge of. (my calling is enrichment assistant) We had a little bonfire and testimony meeting with about 20 girls from my relief society. It was needed. I love my relief society. Then Vanessa and I enjoyed a great spaghetti dinner made by Lindsay and Jared. They are great hosts. Then we just chilled the rest of the night at Lindsay's talked and talked and watched a real funny video of Brian Reagan. hahahaha. Then we went to bed. Sunday, we went to sacrament. Took pictures at the temple, and chilled for hours at Linday's. Once again Lindsay and Jared are the best. They always let us just crash at their place and offer us food and entertainment. Thank-you guys!! And I'll just say it now, congrats on knowing that you have a BOY!! :) you guys will be great parents and can't wait to come over and hold that sweetie. If you ever need anything Lindsay, I am here to help. I know I don't have a car, but if you just need to me to clean the house or help you out with dinner, I can. Lindsay also took me to the store Monday night. She is a sweetheart. Its good to know I have real friends up here now and you are the best. I owe you a lot. Especially because she also slipped in Nate's mission address to me. ;) anyways, back to my weekend. It was great to have Vanessa there and to just have someone to hug. I've missed that the most. I don't ever get hugs, and I am such a touchy person it was so nice. I am so glad you came up Vanessa. You sacrificed so much to come see me and that means a lot to me. I could go on and on about all you helped me with. Thank you thank you thank you. I love you.
So I know I have a lot to blog about. Me and my roommates are pretty good about taking pictures of a lot of things we do. So I have a lot to write and post about, but figured I would take it one at a time. So here's about the last weekend. Enjoy the pictures.

I'm alive!!

Skinnlee is getting married. :)


oh good times. :)

going to the dance together. what a night!! :)

going for a walk together. haha. krazy kollege kids!!
this is Lil Bridge, chels, and Skinnlee (Mckenzie)


this is Skinnlee, Savs (Savannah) , and Lil Bridge
we went a little crazy when Chels left. haha

good times friends.

I have to POOP!!! :)

America's next top models. you know it.

Oh my favorite.


Can you guess who we are? it started out with a night trying to dress up like Chels. haha. oh we love you.
just don't ask what time it was. we were way tired.

our long hike up to church. had to take a break and take a cute picture.
Skinlee, B , Chels, Heidi, Savs, missing Bethany.


I know most of you are thinking, "Is Bridget still alive?" Did the crazy Rexburg snow get the best of her. Well here's your answer. I'M STILL ALIVE!!! Lets start with pictures. I need to have them up on here more often. crazy huh? its a great place to be. Thats all i can say.

And here are some pictures of my bedroom when I first moved in. There is more stuff now. but you get the gist. I love my bedroom! :)





and here are some pictures of me and my 2nd last day with my family. We stayed in Idaho. It was a great experience.





oh i miss you guys so much!!!!! :(


I'm going there someday. :)

and here are just a FEW of many pictures of my last day with my best friend. :(


of course we had to fit in our Sunday walks in.


and laughing our heads off.

and finding things that make Vanessa scream and me laugh and take a picture. ;)

oh vanessa. I miss YOU!!!!!!

and I miss our talks on your roof. with the full moon.

well thats about it folks. I woke up at 9 this morning and am still on this stikin computer on my bed. its 2:00 right now. oh well. what else do I have to do? lol I will try to be better at keep this updated. I know I didn't talk much, but figured pictures talk louder than words sometimes. I will get on another time and keep you updated. The only thing I'm gunna say is that I am on a realy competitive team and I love it so much. Its so much fun and its such a good feeling to be happy again. :) love my team and stuff. even though my practice is at 6 in the morning. its worth it. I am falling in love with Owl City lately too. until next time, I LOVE YOU!!! <3

BYU-IDAHO!

I know its been way too long since I have made a post. But I decided I needed to start with something small and do it every day or so and maybe i'll get everyone caught up. I only have a little bit because I'm at the library on campus and I really need to get home and do MORE homework and get some food in my stomach.
I am really enjoying this place. It is totally the place for me. I love love love it. The thing that blows me away the most is the fact that I can feel the spirit of Christ that you would feel in the middle of sacrament just on my way to classes. The campus is full of people that are striving to become like Christ as I am. I don't feeel left out. I don't feel stupid for dressing modest everyday. I don't feel stupid carrying my scriptures to class. I don't feel stupid in my apartment reading my scriptures at the dinner table or praying in the living room. Its just a perfect place for me and my testimony to dwell. I love it. The classes are always started with a prayer at least and sometimes a hymn. How wonderful is that? I have a class that is about Pakistan and the Global Hotspot over there. For me, that's not a subject that makes me happy or even excited to learn about. But because we start with a prayer. It helps me stay focused. I feel like I learn things better and easier and I never thought I would. I could go on and on and on about all the wonderful things about this university. Its for me.
The other thing that has helped me to love this experience is my wonderful roomates. I get along with them so well. I knew two of them from my high school. But its nice to have roomates because I really don't know many people here. So when we are bored and want to go do something I can always count on hanging out with them. We all get along so well. It is such a blessing. We haven't had any conflicts yet or any hard times. I'm sure they will come eventually but i'm not too worried. I'm a very easy going person so if there is something I don't really agree with or want to do, I'll do it anyways because its not worth the trouble. Its nice to have a room to go to sometimes and just do homework though. They are huge on having music on and always dancing and singing. Which i absolutely adore. I have learned to let loose a little and just have fun. They are so much fun and I love them. Savannah Argyle shares my room with me and she is so awesome. She is always to happy and positive towards life. So carefree and fun. I just love her. The other night both of us were talking about boys and things that happen with them and we were just not having a good day. But we realized that we don't need to worry. Both of our patriarchal blessings talk about us getting married and having kids. We're both very rightoeous women and if we stay that way we need to stop worrying about boys. Things will happen. So then she shared a quote with me and it blew my mind away how perfect it was for me to hear that at this moment in my life. It was, "Faith in God includes faith in his timing." and we both just loved that quote and wanted to be reminded of it everyday. So we put tons of computer paper together and wrote it out with crayons and put it up on our wall. So when I walk into my bedroom I see it. I LOVE IT!! Anyways. tons to talk about and not enough time. But i'll try to keep this up. I love it here and I'm so glad I'm here. I have received confirmation that this is the place for me and I will gain so much here. In so many different aspects.
I have to talk about my wonderful classes real quick and then I need to go. First of all, I have to let everyone know that I officially changed my major and minor. It may change again, but so far I LOVE IT!!! My major is Child Development and my minor is Home and Family Studies. I know thats so funny. but i'll admit it. I love it and I think i'm gunna stick with it. I have a Money Management class that I think may be one of my favorites. Its a very easy going not stressful class but I have learned the most in there than anyother class that I have. The teacher is great. She is teaching in a more practical, applicable way then the technical, stupid way. haha. I just love her. She is great. I have to make a budget the whole semester and write down everything that I spend and earn. I have learned so much on food storage, disasters, needs vs. wants, and the LDS philosophy of money. It is so much fun. But whats so funny about my class... about 25 girls and 2 guys. :) The two guys are married and about 20 of the girls are married. hahaha. oh BYU-I!! :) its hilarious. anyways. love the class. very useful information. Then I have a Volleyball Theory class. Its about coaching volleyball. Its a different spin on my life. I'm so used to being the one coached and now I have to be the one coaching and thinking about the players. Its weird but i love it so much. My teacher is a little crazy, but its okay. We have a great book that we're reading and its so useful. one thing that i like about my teacher is that she teaches all the ways to coach things and tells us that we get to decide what we like best. there isn't one way to coach something so she teaches all the most successful ways and we decide what we want. great class. Then I have Global Hotspot. YUCK!! but its a class I HAD to take to whatever. I mean its interesting because i know absolutely nothing about pakistan and stuff. But its a weird class. Lots of reading and preparing for lessons and alot to do. But luckily my roomate, Savannah is in my same class. and my other roomate Mckenzie, is the same class just a different time. So we help out each other. Then I have Book of Mormon and I love that class too. Its so much fun. Its so much better than seminary and its a real enjoyment. My teacher reminds me alot of my old seminary teacher, Brother Hamilton, and I loved him and his teaching style so its worked out great. He has a great sense of humor and that always helps in class. There are some amazing people in my class and I am really enjoying it. It gives me enough of a challenge but not too much. and I have a friend, Karlie Passey, in my class too. Its sweet. Then I have beg. French. Way to easy for me, but she goes really fast so its good. And its good for me to be refreshed on my beginning french language. I love the fact that we're learning how to sing hymns in french and I know how to say a prayer in french. Its the best. Its a great class. Its everyday but Friday and its about 15-20 minutes walk away from my apt. and its all uphill. So its tough that i go everyday, but its a good workout. :) I then have a Walleyball class and I absolutely love it. It took me about two days to get used to the fact that it comes off the wall not off the persons hand, if that makes sense. I had to learn all new angles that the ball will come to me and stuff. But its been fun to play volleyball and have a little bit of a challenge in learning new things about it. I have almost mastered the "impossible to touch" serve. Its awesome. In real volleyball all serves are basically able, if you're good enough to at least touch and get up. Well in Walleyball because of the boucing off of the walls, there will be times that it will hit the wall lightly enough that it won't come off and just skid across the wall. You can't get it that way. Or I can serve it so short and fast that you can't get it. Anyways, its been fun to learn new things about my game. My coach is really impressed with my volleyball skills, especially my defense. Its finally time that my coach notices my skill. This class has NO classroom time. Its all court time. We play for 2 hours. Thats it. Nothing but playing. thats why i love it so much. They are played in Raquetball courts so it gets really hot, but at least I know I won't gain the freshman 20 this way. :) Its also nice because the coach of this class also teaches my Volleyball Theory class. Well those are my classes. great aren't they? I recently went to one of my advisors and she looked at my classes and transcript and stuff and I am on a fast track to graduating!! :) because I had 28 credits that transfered almost directly from NNU to BYU-I. I don't have to take alot of my generals. Only 3 more science instead of 6. no more math, if i pass the test. only 1 more humanities. and so on. I can soon dive right into my classes for my major and minor which i am SO EXCITED for. Sewing classes, home decor, family studies, fashion design, and it goes on. how fun is that?
anyways. enough for today. Sorry it was long. But hopefully it was enough for you to get caught up in the life of Bridget Nielson, student at BYU-Idaho. Miss everyone and love you all. Keep up your blogs because I read them often. I'll try to do my share as well.

Charity~The pure love of Christ

I hope I can continue my success with my weekly christ-like attributes. I know if i make them official and put them up on my blog it wil remind me and give me a little more of a push. This last week it was happiness. I started on Monday with a rough start, but I ended the week happy. There were times I even was wondering why am I happy right now. I normally would get mad in this situation or whatever. But the lord was on my side the whole time. Its amazing how many things I can get done and conquered when the Lord is on my side the whole time. I used him the whole week and went to him often. I stayed happy the whole week and that would make me even more happy. I had a rough week, but I didn't even notice it and no one else did because I was too busy being happy. So I will continue my happiness this week and keep that on my mind.
This week I am focusing on Charity. When I was at church today, I was wondering what I could focus on, and couldn't think of anything. But then I looked back at my day earlier. The first thought I had when I woke up this morning was, "I want to make some cookies for my family!" So I decided that that must be what I'll do all week. Focus on others and not on me. We have been having lessons in Relief Society on it as well so it has been on my mind. Anyways...
I'll end with a quote by Marjorie Hinckley. This is my favorite quote I think. This is gunna be my theme and my push this week. wish me good luck!...
"I dont want to drive up to the pearly gates in a shiny sports car, wearing beautifuly tailored clothes, my hair expertly coiffed, and with long, perfectly manicured fingernails. I want to drive up in a station wagon that has mud on the tires from taking the kids to scout camp. I want to be there with grass stains on my shoes from mowing Sister Schenk's lawn. I want to be there with a smudge of peanut butter on my shirt from making sandwhiches for a sick neighbor's children. I want to be there with a little dirt under my fingernails from helping to weed someone's garden. I want to be there with the children's sticky kisses on my cheeks and tears of a friend on my shoulder. I want the Lord to know I was really here and that I really lived." ~Marjorie Hinckley

Pictures of France compared to my life

I know I never uploaded my pictures from France. So here are my best pictures for you. But this is mostly for me. I have started to become a grumpy, tired Bridget and I didn't like it because I was always happy and energetic. Last night I had a breakdown with Vanessa and I'm sorry she had to deal with it, but thats what best friends are for right? Well one thing that I established was that I need to start my days of right, and they go alot more smooth.

I'm also going back to my good habits and working on a christ-like attribute every week. This week is happiness. So i'm doing things that are making me happy. Yesterday was not the best start, but we all make mistakes and I have the rest of the week to work on. So I'm doing this post for me. To start my day off right and to hopefully help me to be happy today. Here we go!:

I would have to say, I felt closest to my Heavenly Father in this moment in my life. Besides when I'm in the temple. The wind was blowing a brisk, cold air. The ocean tide was splashing up on the rocks and onto my cheeks. I was in France having the time of my life. The sun was bright at first. But I stood there for almost 2 hours. Watched the whole sunset. It was thee most beautiful thing that I have ever seen in my life before. It was truly breathtaking. As I stood up on top of the wall surrounding the city, I realized that, no matter where I am and what I'm doing, my Heavenly Father is watching over me and giving me the sweet tender mercies like a magnificent sunset in France to let me know that he's watching over me and that he loves me. I was truly speechless this whole time and I did not want to leave. I wanted to stay there the whole time. I felt so away from the whole and so close to heaven. What a heavenly moment I had that I will never forget.

Life is always a journey up. A journey towards heaven and back to home. For me right now, a journey back to happiness. Each day happier and happier back to normal. A journey to become more and more christ-like everyday. Each day I become closer and closer to him. Some days are harder than others. some days we take two stairs at a time. Some days we need to take a break. Some days we fall back one. but some day we'll also make it and that some day will make all the other some days worth it.

Everyone is like a box of flowers. The whole world probably ignores them and just takes advantage of them. But Bridget will always see them and notice them and find the beauty in them.

Let me describe this scene: You walk through this old, smelly, and scary walkway in between two big old old buildings. It had been raining all day. Everything was wet and the air was cold. You walk through this skinny door way and there is this big open court yard. It looks like it could be from a scary movie. Back in the olden days it was a graveyard. Skulls and things are everywhere and on the buildings surrounding you. The trees are lifeless and dark. The grass is dead and colorless. The clouds are ready to pour. The sun has dissapeared. You get the chills up and down your spine. You feel the walls coming in and now you feel like the main character from a scary movie. You are in the scary movie now and you dont know what to think. But as soon as you think life could end right now, you turn your head to the right. On the windows of an old building there are colorful, full of life, happy, comforting, and beautiful pansies sitting in window boxes lining the whole building. You take a deep breath and realize that you are back to yourself and back to your own life. Things are normal again and you couldn't feel happier. :)

I absolutely love this picture. One of my best. But i love it also because it just makes me happy looking at it, and putting myself in the picture and remembering the moment I took this picture and feeling the air of France all around me. Oh how i love it.

But this picture makes me think. The Eiffel Tower is a worldwide figure. Anyone will see it and know what it is. anyone. This tower stands tall and immovable. The world has gone through alot of crap. France has gone through alot of crap. But it still stands tall. Has not moved an inch and will not let anything break it down. The Eiffel Tower is the tallest building in France. Clears all buildings by far through the whole country.

I want to be an Eiffel Tower someday. Anyone will see a picture of me and know who I am and who I stand for. I will stand tall and firm in times of war and trouble around me and within me. I will not let anything or anyone break me down and I will continue to be a world-wide figure, so to speak, and always seen as a beautiful figure that is amazing and firm in her beliefs. I am an Eiffel Tower and I always will be. I will always stand taller than evryone else around me and I will always be striving to keep that label.

101 things that make BRIDGET happy!! :)

so i've been thinking alot lately. One of my good friends said to me one time that I'm always happy and cheerful, but I don't think so sometimes, I just try to always seem happy. lol so I wanted to see if I had alot of things in my life that make me happy. so I started to compile a list of things that make me happy. some are really weird. some are very temporal and some are not. some are very cheesy, and some make most people happy. so here we go... no laughing! :)
1. family
2. friends
3. church
4. Dr. Pepper
5. kids
6. pink
7. blogging
8. the question game
9. facebook
10. the scriptures
11. Vannessa!!!
12. Little Rascals
13. my nieces and nephews
14. singing
15. Rascal Flatts
16. my patriarchal blessing
17. Peach Rings
18. boys 1
9. money
20. shopping alone
21. reading
22. Peanut M&M's
23. Flowers
24. Bridget time
25. reading about my ancestors
26. my young women girls
27. working out
28. laughing hard
29. volleyball
30. Italian food
31. running
32. cereal
33. bows
34. sunflowers
35. Daisies
36. pearls
37. speaking french
38. math
39. camping
40. boating
41. Twix
42. my journal
43. txting
44. hugs
45. one on one time
46. watermelon
47. music
48. sleeping in
49. being loved
50. praying. deep praying
51. hamburgers
52. massages
53. taking naps
54. sonic slushies
55. sleeping in
56. girls camp
57. France
58. love
59. writing
60. Melanie
61. going to church
62. cleaning
63. doing hair
64. eating
65. summer
66. nicknames
67. the scriptures
68. frisbee
69. being outside
70. Celien Dion
71. Roller Coasters
72. cheetos... hot and cold. :)
73. tanning
74. dresses
75. jewelry
76. Lagoon
78. Bear Lake
79. the beach
80. laying out in the hot sun
81. reading a good book
82. making cards
83. service for others
84. cooking
85. bearing my testimony
86. swedish fish
87. drinking cold water
88. taking a hot shower
89. bath time
90. writing in my journal
91. talking
92. laughing hard
93. playing with people's hair
94. making others happy
95. waterskiing
96. watching any princess movie
97. cleaning
98. decorating
99. doing crafts
100. playing games
101. Vanessa!!!
.... I finally finished it!!! i'm sure i have things twice... so let me know if you find one twice. well Vanessa is on here twice because she ALWAYS makes me happy. not one time she hasn't. I just needed to finish this list so that i have it in college when i'm down in the dumps and I need something to cheer me up. :) this is mostly for me. glad i finished it. YAY!!!

stressed out

I'm sorry I haven't blogged in ages. and theres alot going on in my life I have enough to blog about. but thats the thing. I have way too many things going on, i dont have time to blog. I'm getting really stressed with college. nothing is working the way i would like it to. I just checked this morning on my classes and all of a sudden it says i'm not registered for any classes. my apartments won't get back to me to let me know if i even have a place to live in 3 weeks. I'm trying to get things organized in my room and such, but work seems to win my time. but i'm still complaining about the money because I can barely pay for tuition as it is, i'm not going to have any money left. I know the second I'm left at college i'm gunna cry my eyes out because i'm gunna feel so lonely. i feel lonely now anyways. I have absolutely no time for anything anymore. I'm such a grump these days because NOTHING at BYUI is working out for me. everything is going wrong. i have no idea why I'm still going there. What a hassel. anyways, just thought i would at least update my life on here. Stressed out completely to no end is my life right now. yay.

Happy as can be!

Just thought this would be a great day to post, because I don't have very many days that I'm REALLY happy like the last few days. Because I work full time at the Reel theatre and have no time for Bridget, for family, and for friends life is a little stressing. So I have to make time for family and friends. I'm already exhausted from work and grumpy from all the rude customers, so hanging out isn't my choice to my free time. I just want to sleep. haha. what a sad life. :)
but I've been so happy lately and I have no idea why. But I'm just really really happy. its kinda a weird feeling, isn't that sad? anyways... I was in such a good mood last night, so I decided to do a bow attack to Vanessa and Kira, they're basically my roomates. Vanessa had filled up my car with gas earlier in the day, and bought the sneakers that i've wanted for a while, but never bought because I'm trying to save save save for college. and i'm so excited to wear them!!! anyways, so I wanted to tell Vanessa thanks and Kira is just such a great friend and I love how much she just is so happy lately. =] so I attacked their front door with bows, (which is perfect. cuz who else would attack someone's door with bows other than this bow girl right here?) and wrote them a cute little poem that went somethin like this....
You've been attacked by you know WHO
I love Vanessa and Kira TOO
I've been thinkin of YOU
and thank you for all that you DO
I LOVE YOU!!!

and then I gave them each their favorite treat. They were both out doing things with their families, so it was perfect timing. They both came home to a "bow"-ed door w/ hearts everywhere, the little note, and a treat. I hope I made their day, because they ALWAYS make my day and I just love them so much. So thats what I did last night.
But the happiness hasn't worn off yet, and I'm so glad because I just love it when I'm happy and so does everyone else. hahaha. I was really really happy the day before too. i dont know whats getting into me but whatever I'm doing I better keep doin.
So if you get bow attacked in the next few days.... you know that Bridget is still happy. :)
love you guys!

A Father's Blessing

Well I ended up having my dad give me a blessing. It was a great idea for me to get a blessing from him. Besides the fact that I know what I'm doing with my life now, I learned so many more things from that blessing. My parents really do care about me and what is going on in my life and I need to go to them more often when I am struggling. My parents are just amazing and have such a spirit about them. I love it and glad I was raised by them!! But I also realized that I need to rely on my father in heaven more often. I am too much of a person that wants to do things on my own and figure things out my own way and dont want to put my life in other people's hands. But i've learned how to do that a little bit better now that Vanessa is around and changing me for the better. But i have been praying everynight the last two weeks and its amazing how my day goes better when I start and end with a prayer. But i need to go to him more often and I'm so glad he's fogiving and he still wants me to come to him even though i completely kept him out of my life before. Its an amazing feeling. But here's the news that I think all of you have been waiting for..... drum roll please........ BYUI!!! yes I made the right decisions before, I was just having too many complications with the school and satan was working me way too hard. so here I am back in the groove for Rexburg!! I'll be keeping you posted on how the college prep is comin and the stress levels rising. But i jsut have to say that I'm glad my dad is worthy enough to give me a father's blessing on the spot and my parents are caring enough and have the spirit with them enough to have an hour discussion with me about my life ahead. Thank you mom and dad and especially thank you to my heavenly father. I love you!!!

My life now: work, family and friends.

So as I think about what has happened since the last time I blogged, HOLY VACHE!!! (thats cow in french. just by the way)
I finished last week off great. I spent so much more time with Vanessa. Imagine that? :) I ended up going to Twin Falls with her for the 4th and it was a great holiday i must say. We had a great trip down and a good chance to have Vanessa Bridget talk. Even though we already had a week of it. haha. The drive was so quick because we just talked and talked. Great memories. Then we had the fireworks and jazz at her sister, Heather's house there in Twin. She is such a great little hostess and I really had a great time. It was fun. I got a little homesick cuz I didn't spend it with my famiy. but it wasn't too bad. We watched the fireworks that Twin put off and we watched it from their front lawn, it was great. Then Zach, Heather's husband, put off quite a show doing his own fireworks. He was so funny to watch his little boy come out. haha. anyways. then we played Rock Band in the basement and that was fun. I'm not a big lover of Rock Band, but I had fun just watching them and seeing them enjoy themselves. and Heather's girls are so cute!!! Sydney thought my name was Midget, so thats what she called me the whole weekend and Mallory is so darn cute. We had some great bonding moments when we did the princess puzzle together and when we were snuggling on the love sack and I was tickling her. Vanessa and I enjoyed sleeping in the, finally, queen sized bed because I slept in her little twin bed for a week. But let me explain myself before you judge me. She has ear wigs in her apartment and some were coming out of her couch, so I didn't want to sleep in it so I slept in her bed. lol it was okay though because we're so close and we both love cuddling. hahaha. well in Twin we had a queen size bed to share and it was good but bad at the same time cuz when I was cold and wanted to cuddle with her, she didn't want to. I think she was tired of cuddling with me. hahahaha. anyways. Thanks Vanessa for a great week and Holiday, and thanks to the Kelsey's for making the 4th a great one for me this year. Love you guys!!
the drive home was also really fast because we talked and talked about more things. we played the question game and we did not listen to one ounce of music cuz it was Sunday. then we spent the rest of Sunday together at church and dinner and the fireside. oh man. what a week!!!! =]
well this week has been pretty eventful as well. I have gotten alot accomplished and I am so proud of myslef. I have talked to some people that I never thought I would. I broke down some very thick walls that I thought would be up forever and ever. But the hardest part of this whole week was dealing with not seeing Vanessa every waking moment. so funny thing... on sunday we were talking about how we probably wouldn't see each other untilWednesday and we ended up seeing each other more than once a day everyday so far this week. hahaha. LOVE IT!!! But today has already been a long day and its just gunna drag on longer and longer. I was so excited to sleep in and have a day off from work cuz I dont go in till 8:30 tonight to put up new posters and fix the marquees for the new movies coming tomorrow. But NO!!! I had to watch my neighbors and I'm so mad. I had so many things to get done today and all I got done was blogging. lol oh well. I told her that I wouldnt be able to watch them anymore though. I almost work full time at the theatre now. I work everyday but Sunday, have two double shifts, one midnight shift, one kid shows shift, and marquees. YUCK!!! so I am getting so exhausted from work I can't do anything anymore. and when I do, I have no energy. I don't like it. I'm known for my bubbly personality and my energy. well not anymore. but I got paid yesterday and my pay check was twice as big as my very first pay check and it was so much more than I expected. and I'm now working more and minumum wage goes up at the end of the month. wahoo!!!!!!! well my dad is giving me a blessing tonight before I go to work because I'm struggling with the whole college thing. I dont have good feelings about it anymore and I dont want to go to BYUI anymore. I'm so confused and dont know what to do with my life anymore. I need to know what is best for me and my situation in life right now. I have another perfect plan if BYUI is not for me. and we'll see after tonight and more prayerful nights. I'll keep u posted on my decision. just keep me in your prayers and if any of you have any suggestions, let me know. i can use all the help I can get.
oh one last thing about work, since its my only life now. I got employee of the month!!!! WAHOOOO!!!!! I was so excited. and I'm a 98.5%. The 1.5 was one time I forgot my name tag, and the one other time I was a minute late. and thats it. they said this is a really really high percentage and they were all so proud of me. =] i got $25.00 on my gift card and I can't wait to start eating candy at work. lol My manager said I'm really good with the customers, bubbly and friendly. I'm really really hard working and trustworthy. I sont complain and I will do anything they ask me to do, but twice as better as they expected. He is just in love with the fac that he hired me and he does not want me to leave. thats why I'm working so much because he loves it when I work and everything about it. anyways... hope i didn't miss anything. LOVE YOU!!!

My heart is healed. <3

First of all the song you are listening to right now. Its called Forever by Rascal Faltts and I just have to say that this song is mine and Vanessa's theme song and its perfect to be listening to while I talk about us and this weekend.
So this week my sister, mom and dad went to Girls Camp and I thought I was going to be a little lonely when I wasn't working. It was the best week ever though. I decided to stay over at Vanessa's apartment because one, I didn't want to sleep home alone and it would be a good opportunity for us to talk. But the best thing about the whole thing was that she said she was gunna give me a massage. She gave me an amazing foot massage the first night I stayed there, but the second night we were going to have a Little Rascals night and she was going to give me a massage. well lets just say, the TV didn't even turn on once. We started talking about a few things and it just kept on going and going and going. It was great. Wanna know how long we talked for? till 6:30 in the morning. yup. i said it. 6:30. and the best part of the whole thing... We had to get up at 7:15 to babysit Vanessa's neice!!! hahaha. we took a few different naps during the day though. We spent the whole day together and got alot accomplished and we did some great things. I had to get into work and do Marquees and Posters, and then I spent that night laying in her bed talking again. We talked for a few hours, and then we fell asleep. I fell asleep crying just because of what we had just talked about. I woke up just crying my eyes off because she was cuddling with me and rubbing my back. I just realized that this is going to last for only two months more. I have to leave eventually and of course I'm gunna call her at least once a day if not more. and we are gunna stay close close friends. but I realized that i'm not gunna get massages from her, I'm not gunna be able to cuddle with her, and I'm not gunna get her amazing hugs that are making me cry right now just thinking about missing. so she woke up too and notice I was crying and we started talking again and we talked until almost 5. We talked about so many things and had some incredible moments together. What a friend she is. I am just so speechless about this amazing girl and I have no words to describe my feelings towards her. Finally I basically made her go to sleep because she had to go into work early this morning.
But the only thing I can say about this week with Vanessa is that even though she didn't heal my back and didn't get the opportunity to do that for me, she healed my heart and thats something that no one has been able to do and she has no idea how much I LOVE HER!!! My heart is normal again and it feels repaired, full, and ready to grow again. Thank you Vanessa. I love you more than you know and hope the next two months are even better than the last month we've known each other and hope the months without you we can survive!! =]

Whistle While You Work!

growing up I never got the meaning of the that song from Snow White that the Dwarfs sing, "Whistle While You Work." but I think I pretty much get that meaning down now. Correct me if you think I'm wrong. But working at the Reel Theatre I have learned SO much about so many different things. Its been a great experience for me. But one thing that I have learned that I needed to learn was to whistle while I worked. I needed to have a good attitute and be happy to work and serve customers, even thought most of the time I'm not. :) I never knew why waitresses wanted to spit in people's food, but I now know that feeling. There was one lady that was so mean to me, I would have spit in her popcorn if the supervisor wasn't in the consessions with me. Some people come in so grumpy, it drives me crazy!!!!! but I've learned that even though I have the biggest headache, I've been working for 8 hours, my feet are killing me, its hot, I'm grumpy, I have so much to do, people are jerks to me, I do things wrong, and I'm hungry it doesnt matter. I need to be happy and cheerful because then my co-workers want to work with me, the customers will want to come back, and I will enjoy my job more. Anyways, I am trying to lift myself up right now, and preparing for my DOUBLE SHIFT today. AAAHHH!! I go in at 11:45 and won't be home till 11:30!! isn't that just insanity?! yes. it is!! this is my first time working a double since I started working at the Reel and its been about a month. I am really enjoying the work though. Its a fun job that keeps me busy and always doing something most of the time, and thats the kind of work I enjoy. I love working with people for the most part and they are the ones that often set my mood for the rest of the day. but i'm trying to let that not get to me. I also love who I work with as well. There are a few lazy people, but its not bad enough to complain. so i'm not complaining. They are all very fun and make the work environment very exciting and up-beat. I get along with all of them, and there are some that I get along with really well. Its a great job, and everyday I pray to Heavenly Father thanking him for letting me work there. I am SO GRATEFUL!!! anyways, I gotta go get things done before I go into work. I will be whistling while I work today for sure. =]

I LOVE to see the temple!!!

When I was a little girl, my favorite song was "I Love to See the Temple" and I would sing it all the time. My family probably got sick of that song. But everytime I sing it I get really really teary eyed cuz it reminds me of when I used to sing it all the time. I remember one night in particular. We were driving to Utah in our Maroon Van. I was sitting in the back and everyone was asleep besides dad that was driving. I was sitting next to the window and was just looking out just taking in the beauty of the drive to Utah. (ok i know everyone disagrees with me right now, but I find it beautiful and I love just looking out the window and taking it all in.) I was very bored and I just started to sing that song. I usually did when I was bored or when I was happy. And I swear I sang that song for hours and hours. I just love the words and the tone in the song. I don't know how my siblings didn't kill me for snging it for hours, but they're all really patient. Anyways. I just love that song. Still do. But my whole life I have had a HUGE love for temples. So most people can say, "yeah so did I!" No, this is beyond loving the temple. My whole entire life I understood what its purpose was, and I have never ever had a day in my life that I didn't think about the temple. I just want to go there so bad!!! The first time I did Baptizms for the dead was basically the best day of my life so far. I loved the spirit there and if it was possible I would have just gotten married then so that I could go through the whol temple and be there more often.
Anyways, the reason why I write this is because I did baptizms last night. It was such an amazing trip. I would have to say one of the best and I have taken A LOT of trips to the temple. One reason was because it was with my singles ward and not my home ward. No offense, but that was one reason why it was a little better because the people there with me are a little more mature and can handle being quiet and reverent in the temple and so it just seemed to be a little more spiritual and a great reverence. I loved it. But I also got alot of answers to my prayers and I could not hold in my tears the whole night. The second I walked in I felt the spirit and I got an answer to one of my trials I'm going through. But I held in my tears because I didn't want everyone to think I was crazy. Thanks Vanessa, I can now say I know how to hold in my tears. haha. (shes the one that taught me how to, without her even knowing it!) Anyways, I spent alot of time with my heavenly father there and I know that is the place for me and my heavenly father to spend time with each other and talk. It was an amazing feeling. There was so many things that happened there, that were very personal that I won't metion. But I just have to say that its the place to be. I challenge everyone to make a goal to go to the temple more often then you are right now. You will be lifted up and strengthened. I am still glowing from last night. I hope you know that "I love to see the temple. I'm going there someday To feel the Holy Spirit, To listen and to pray. For the temple is a house of God, A place of love and beauty. I'll prepare myself while I am young; This is my sacred duty. I love to see the temple. I'll go inside someday. I'll cov'nant with my Father; I'll promise to obey. For the temple is a holy place Where we are sealed together. As a child of God, I've learned this truth; A fam'ly is forever."
I also have to say Cracker Barrel before the temple, was AMAZING. I have to say I've never had better food then last night. (well besides the amazing food in France. but that doesn't count.) I had breaded Shrimp, hushpuppies, steak fries, macaroni and cheese, applesauce, and biscuits. OH MY GOODNESS!!!! everysingle one of those items were DE-LISH!!!! I ate so much of it I was sick when I walked out. I was dared to eat all my plate, but i couldnt do it. I finished all half pound of shrimp though. :) anyways, I just had to add that in there because that definitely added to the amazazingness of the night. I have to say thanks to the ward for taking us and making it special for me. and your highness, thanks for making the trip that much more better. You know why and you know what I'm talking about, but seriously girl. I LOVE YOU!!! stay amazing.